Wednesday, October 21, 2015

The Wait - Originally Written in August, A Month Before Zayn was Born.

15th August, 2015.

It has been now over 6 months since your Mom went to her Mom's place leaving your Daddy here :) Dont worry son, that was not because of any bad reasons but for all the good reasons - to ensure you are fine and she is fine too!

It has been 6 interesting, roller coaster months for us - more for her I guess as you know - I can be a lonely man who sometimes doesnt feel so lonely when left alone!

She has felt cycles of pains, anxiety, fear during the last 8 months. I have been helpless most of the times, sitting far away from her. Only comfort I gave her was to tell her that her pain was not unique - well that is easier said than felt. It may not be unique, but it has to be felt by her only!

We are waiting for you son now! There are moments when I start imagining a life, seeing you, feeling you and then there are times when my work takes centrestage - you know - I have become a workoholic!

I dont know why I am writing this note :) I felt something and decided to just pen down.

Love you Already :)

Papa

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Ode to Mumbai --- By Faiz

13th May 2005 – the journey started to the city that never sleeps.

A journey that would define rest of my life, the city that would shape my future.
The city where I have spent more than 6 years of my formative professional life,
The city where I have found and lost and found love – love of friends, people and work
The city where I have seen floods, blasts, accidents, and yes the much talked about Spirit of the City.
I have seen death, I have seen life and I have seen people living life to the fullest.
I have seen people cramped in buses, trains, holding their heads high thinking about what to fight for next
I have seen people struggling to survive a day, have seen people struggling to make ends meet
I have seen people driving best cars, living the most opulent lives
I have seen film stars and I have seen people wanting to be film stars

I have also seen how life becomes so precious when the same sea where we spend endless time just sitting with awe watching the serenity of the far off still water, turns into a storm…and the same rain that the city waits for turns it into a death bed.

It was the same spirit of the city that made me walk with strong fever on that 26th July, for over 20 kms on feet in sometime knee, sometime chest and sometime neck deep water to help someone......someone scared …someone…

That day – I fell in love with the city. A love that grew stronger day by day.
Spoke to a bus conductor enroute, he sounded like a guardian of the passengers, held hands with people who walked in line supporting each other, met people who carried tea and biscuits to help stranded people – people unknown to them just moments before – but now they all formed a strong bond – a bond

A bond that I again saw in that famous candle march – the march when the city was again attacked – and luckily I had left that place where the attacks happened – hours ago
People shouting and crying..we could feel that energy…we could feel tears swelling inside…was failing to understand what made so many cry amidst that euphoria –in a city where people die to survive a day – people were mourning the death of others – people were crying at their own vulnerability.. the city has a heart of its own.

The city – where we had the fun travelling in trains, double deckers, travelling on water.
Watching the sun setting into the Arabian Sea…leaving all its splendor that holds the city and charges the night
The city – that literally never sleeps
The city – that becomes the focal point for people with aspirations, people meet and become friends
The city that has given me so many friends for life
The city that has given me love – the love for life, the love for freedom.

Those nights spent travelling to town, sitting at Bandra BandStand…watching the sea fight the shores and shore resisting the waves and ending up lapping them.
The nights at Leopold, the nights at Juhu, the nights at Marine Drive, those nights....

(....to be continued)

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Whats Happening in My Life - An Inquisitive Self

AAlll eeesss Wellll...
Or is it?
Nothing much happening..apart from the daily hustle bustle of work life and thanks to my parents company..a good time and someone to get back to when you leave office..

Apart from that keep on hearing about matchmakers trying to find that someone perfect for me..God knows if that is really what i want!

Still finding it hard to elaborate on whether it is the Sound of Waterfalls or the view of Dewdrops....

Another year is going by..Lot has happened..new friends gained..new people met..

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Monday, August 11, 2008

GooseBumps - Thanks to Abhinav for the Olympic Gold

It is the first time ever that I typed the word Goose bumps in my google search page & here is it what i got : "Goose bumps, also called goose pimples, goose flesh, chill bumps, chicken skin, people bumps, or the medical term cutis anserina, are the bumps on a person's skin at the base of body hairs which involuntarily develop when a person is cold or experiences strong emotions such as fear or awe"

It was such an emotional feeling to listen to the national anthem being played at the Olympics.the first gold after my birth & of course the first ever in an individual event by any Indian in the 104 years of Olympic Games' history.

The man deserves so much praise and what a sight it was to see Abhinav standing after the victory with so much control of his feelings that i somehow compared him with Dhoni.

Watching DD sports, i came to know that it was the same Abhinav Bindra who till sometime back was asked not able to lift the same air rifle that he used today to aim at the Olympic Gold.

Way to go India & wishing good luck to Saina Nehwal and other athletes too who are in the fray of reviving Indian Sports!

Citius, Altius, Fortius

Signing Off,
Faiz

Saturday, July 5, 2008

6 Months gone by...

It has been more than six months since i have written...its not that i did not wish to write..but i guess i was more busy in reading others' blogs..such as..Aamir Khan & AB...

Wud be back soon & hopefully wud be much more regular & talk more about my work, my personal life & of course Life in General...

Take Care,
Faiz

Saturday, January 5, 2008

Let us Make Bridges & Not Walls

Mending Wall

Something there is that doesn't love a wall,
That sends the frozen-ground-swell under it,
And spills the upper boulders in the sun,
And makes gaps even two can pass abreast.
The work of hunters is another thing:
I have come after them and made repair
Where they have left not one stone on a stone,
But they would have the rabbit out of hiding,
To please the yelping dogs. The gaps I mean,
No one has seen them made or heard them made,
But at spring mending-time we find them there.
I let my neighbor know beyond the hill;
And on a day we meet to walk the line
And set the wall between us once again.
We keep the wall between us as we go.
To each the boulders that have fallen to each.
And some are loaves and some so nearly balls
We have to use a spell to make them balance:
'Stay where you are until our backs are turned!'
We wear our fingers rough with handling them.
Oh, just another kind of out-door game,
One on a side. It comes to little more:
There where it is we do not need the wall:
He is all pine and I am apple orchard.
My apple trees will never get across
And eat the cones under his pines, I tell him.
He only says, 'Good fences make good neighbors'.
Spring is the mischief in me, and I wonder
If I could put a notion in his head:
'Why do they make good neighbors? Isn't it
Where there are cows?
But here there are no cows.
Before I built a wall I'd ask to know
What I was walling in or walling out,
And to whom I was like to give offence.
Something there is that doesn't love a wall,
That wants it down.' I could say 'Elves' to him,
But it's not elves exactly, and I'd rather
He said it for himself. I see him there
Bringing a stone grasped firmly by the top
In each hand, like an old-stone savage armed.
He moves in darkness as it seems to me~
Not of woods only and the shade of trees.
He will not go behind his father's saying,
And he likes having thought of it so well
He says again, "Good fences make good neighbors."

-Robert Frost

here i am again.. sitting on a lazy weekend evening recalling a Robert Frost poem that i read in class 10th. I loved that poem just because of the sheer depth of message it leaves on you even at that point of time when the world seemed a far better place to live in.
i was just going thru some unfortunate events that happened on the eve of new year.. of course those were event that were a dampener but i was really amazed to see & hear about some of the reactions to that event & its repercussions. The strangest of them was a leader's ire against all the people who do not belong to that city!!!
i again went thru the newspaper & was amazed to read that all the suspects belonged to that very city.

Now picture this: a very true incident that happened yesterday evening when a colleague of mine & i were returning home. We were buying fruits from a vendor & near to that was a panwallah shop. we heard 2 ppl shouting each other (one being the paanwallah & the other his customer) & no sooner our attention was diverted.. the two started exchanging fists & tore each others clothes among lots of verbal volleys...A big crowd had gathered till then. finally after abt 5 minutes few ppl made them part. But now the real thing started to happen.. few "citizens" started making comments that were not at all connected to the reality of the fight (which no one in fact knew).. the comments varied from; making a force to fight "outsiders", or like "enough is enough".
I was just standing there & thinking about news that 2007 was an year of "mob" ! A mob of people whose sole intention is to do rabble rousing & make daily life of unassuming people hell. No body till the end came to know about the real reasons of the find & actually what were the DNAs of ppl fighting.. but was very well assumed that one was a citizen , the other an outsider & the outsider was the only culprit!!!!

I pray & hope that we become more sensible & patient in the days to come. Try to look at the larger picture & avoid making comments & conclusions that are far reaching in the negative sense.

taking a cue again from Robert Frost: let us make bridges & not walls!

Signing off over a cup of tea (Thanks to Aunty)

Faiz